FAR AWAY

I ask myself sometimes, 

What if a hand that you gave to me to hold 

you take it back

I will be lost,  i think

More than before

I ask myself sometimes,

What if everything that I've been believing would shattered into pieces

Leave me nothing but an empty home

I will be fall,  i think

Harder than before

I ask myself sometimes 

What if suddenly you want to give up

And let those beautiful dreams vanish along with the wind

I will be devastated, i think

But i least i try

Didn't i tell you that i love you? 

Where To Go?

Sometimes we need to blame someone they said

To make things become bearable 

To make things feel easier

To make things sound reasonable

But there are times when we have to blame ourself

Because we can't find any other way to feel better

Because we're too scared that  we're not strong enough to carry on

Because we're too tired to waiting for a miracle... 

Million Reasons

It's not because i want to do this

It's because i have to do this

It's not because i'm giving up

It's because i have to give up

It's not because it's easy for me

It's because i don't have another choice 

It's not because i hate you

It's because i like you too much

It's not because i want to stop

It's because i know that i have to stop

It's not because i'm not sad

It's because i'm too sad

It's not because i want to hurt you

It's because i have to protect my heart

Before things are getting worse

Before we hurt each other more

Before we ruin all those precious memories 

And it's not because i don't want to talk

It's because i don't think i have any right to talk

And it's not because i don't miss you

It's because i think it's the best for you

I'm too sad

I'm really really sad

NEVERLAND

I know all i'm doing is wandering around

In this no man's land

Somewhere far, far from anything

Even too far from my mind.

I've been looking for a way home

A road to lead me back to my existence 

A road that give me light to go home.

But i know i'm just wandering around

Over and over again

I'm tired, i noticed that but i have no choice 

I have to go back 

I have to go back to my comfort zone

It's not that i lost something 

It's just everything goes back to where it used to be

😂

Let me take a break laugh at myself!

To-do-list

Protect yourself, protect your heart

Move out from the circle you created for yourself

Stop blaming others everytime you feel down

Don't believe in others too easily

Don't believe in sweet words easily

Remember that you can't force people to have the same feeling

Remember that your feeling is your own problem

Remember that others would easily bring you down

Know when to stop

Move on! 

STOP RIGHT NOW

Kamu tahu dari awal tak semua yang kau inginkan bisa jadi kenyataan kan? 

Kamu sudah tahu dari awal tak semua hal bisa berakhir indah kan? 

Kamu tahu dari awal bahwa hidup bukanlah sebuah pertunjukkan dimana kau bisa mengubah skenario sekehendak hatimu kan?  Kamu tahu dari awal...

Lebih Baik Diam Saja

Kadang emang lebih baik diam saja.  Soalnya di cuekin di saat kita lagi ada masalah atau perlu masukan itu sakit,  kawan!

Yeah tapi tentu saja nggak bisa menyalahkan orang lain juga.  Kita nggak bisa memaksa orang lain untuk ikut merasakan apa yang kita rasakan.  Kita juga nggak bisa memaksa orang lain untuk berpikir kalau masalah kita ini berat dan kita butuh bantuan.  Pokoknya kita nggak bisa memaksa orang lain juga untuk berempati sementara orang lain berpikir kalau masalah kita itu receh dan nggak penting sama sekali.  Jadi lebih baik diam saja.  Haha! 

Everybody's Changing

Everybody's changing they said,

Everything's changing too.

All you have to do is just stick to who you are and be wise to face those changes.

But what if i'm the one who's changing the most.
Sometimes it feels like i'm not the one who i used to be.

 Sometimes it feels like i don't know myself very well anymore.

And sometimes it's scaring me.  

Get Well Soon, Kitty!

Dari kemarin si Kitty sakit.  Dia jadi pendiam,  nggak mau main, lesu, nggak mau minum susu sama nggak mau makan juga.  Sedih 😢

Padahal beberapa hari kemarin masih ceria.  Soalnya aslinya dia kucing yang aktif banget.  

Baca-baca di internet katanya coba dkasih kuning telur, kemarin sempet mau tapi hari ini nggak mau lagi.  Dikasih madu juga nggak dimakan.

Semoga lekas sembuh,  Kitty! 

Jangan sakit lagi,  semoga jadi sehat dan ceria seperti sedia kala. Aamiin. .

WHY?

Why people have to change? 

Why people hurt others? 

Why people have to ask something that they knew it would hard for others to answer? 

Why some people suddenly disappeared?

Why don't they understand if they don't tell how others are supposed to understand? 

Why it has to rain when you are already dress up and ready to go? 

Why rain keeps pouring out?

Why don't i have a chance? 

Why don't i have a second chance? 

Why don't you understand that feeling is not something we can control? 

Why people just say all they want? 

Why people keeps judging eventhough they don't know anything? 

Why? 

Why some questions seems like don't have an answer?

Then how i'm supposed to know?

WHY? 

I'm OK

Stranger

Stranger

Someone Stranger

Standing in a mirror

I can't believe what i see

How much love has been taken away from me

My heart cries out loud

Everytime i feel lonely in the crowd

Getting you out of my mind

Like separating the wind from the cloud

Afraid

Afraid

I'm so afraid

of losing someone i never have

crazy, oh crazy

finding reasons for my jealously

All i can remember

When you left me alone

Under the moon over my obscure little town

as long as i can remember

Love has turned to be as cold as December

The moon over my obscure little town

The moon over my obscure little town

Puisi oleh Andrea Hirata ( Novel : Padang Bulan )

D I E T

Diet itu susah,  apalagi buat aku si penganut aliran "diet mulainya besok"!

Tapi nggak apa-apa deh mumpung lagi menggebu-gebu mau dicoba lagi aja dan mudah-mudahan kali ini nggak cuma omong doang 😬

Dan ngomong-ngomong soal diet ada banyak metode-metode diet yang populer sih.  Aku tapinya lebih suka diet pake cara lama aja,  makan sehari sekali,  dan kalo bisa diet ga pake nasi dulu lebih bagus lagi.  Dan sebaik-baiknya metode diet tentu aja dengan puasa. Aku juga udah lama banget ga puasa Senin-Kamis lagi.  

Dan harusnya juga diet itu diimbangi dengan olahraga.  Tapi apalah daya aku yang malasnya nggak ketulungan ini. Olahraga bentar ngeluhnya lama dan kalo makanan udah didepan mata langsung khilaf,  lupa diri lagi.  Udahnya baru nyesel terus tapi nggak pernah tobat 😅

Dan ngomong-ngomong soal perolahragaan tadi kemaren nemu di youtube beberapa video zumba yang asyique.

https://youtu.be/rSlp7U-LbxE

https://youtu.be/hDY21DHiikA

https://youtu.be/PvPY6IrQ4Ws

Yeah mudah-mudahan aku bisa konsisten dalam perdietan dan perolahragaan kali ini. Nggak sekedar musiman kayak buah rambutan dan durian.  Aamiin 😁

Let It Go

Ini bukan untuk pertama kalinya. Bodohkah? 

Bisa-bisanya terjatuh lagi-lagi ke dalam lubang yang sama.

Tidak, ini bukan kebodohan.

Hanya saja, dulu dia datang.

Dan dengan pikiran kami memiliki tujuan yang sama,

dengan harapan dia orangnya...

Bahagia? Tak dapat dipungkiri iya.

Hanya saja, ada satu hal yang terlupakan.

Dua orang yang berjalan bergandengan tangan bisa saja memiliki tujuan yang sama,

tapi bukan berarti sampai diakhir tujuan nanti semua berakhir sesuai rencana.

Sakit? Iya.

Marah? Sangat marah.

Kecewa? Wajar kan? Bagaimanapun saya cuma manusia biasa.

Yah.. mungkin bukan dia yang terbaik,

Mungkin bukan dia orangnya...

Rindu

It's been awhile..
Inget banget dulu pertama kali beli laptop alasan utamanya bukan buat kerja tapi buat ngeblog 😁

Yeah dulu emang lagi semangat-semangatnya buat ngeblog sampe-sampe waktu kerja juga dipake buat nulis. Yeah walaupun isinya banyakan soal Korea sih ya. But it was fun!

Dan barusan jadinya tersadarkan, kayaknya enak aja gitu klo ngeblog lagi. Daripada bengong nggak jelas mending dituangkan ke dalam tulisan kan. Mudah-mudahan sih kali ini bisa semangat terus dan nggak bosenan. Aamiin :)